Yesterday was my last day working at the university. Gotta say it felt kinda weird, I knew the day was coming for so long yet I had never really accepted it until the actual day came. It felt solemn , Like my time had come and I’d done a lot of good work there . It was time for me to move onto another chapter in my life. I learned so much there, mostly about myself. Throughout my time there I had changed so much as a person.
Maybe this is what growth feels like. Growing older….wiser… Having to leave people behind that you cherish and value. Not everyone is on the same path , I realized this yesterday. I have a destiny and life I want to create. It was a very dignified goodbye. I will miss the team that’s for sure.
Right now I’m in a state of both freedom and paralyzation. I’m in a kinda limbo in-between things. It’s a space for me to reflect and breathe in-between notes. If I was to compare to this to something , It’s that space between chapters in a book. Nothing is said, there isn’t any extra information. It’s just empty space. It leaves off with a cliffhanger or punchline from the last chapter , and just about to start into the next chapter. Armed with what’s been read and understood in the past chapter , you have a slight idea of what to expect in the next chapter. As we all know though, the next chapter never goes out how we expect it too.
I have no idea what the future holds for me. I have a vision that I’m drawn to. I don’t fully know what it looks like yet but day by day it gets clearer of what that looks like. I know one thing that is for sure. It’s that I’ll get to create, to express, and to create art. I feel like now is a time for me to relax and be present. To be calm and return to my centre with my new knowledge. To connect to a part of myself that’s been guiding me this entire time. I feel it , deep inside . Not from anywhere physically but energetically. It feels like a coal that’s been patiently brewing waiting to start a fire. Sitting buried underneath the ashes burning. It’s been sitting overnight , remnants of the night before. Now the morning has come and its time to rekindle the fire. And I’ve been patiently waiting for a long time for this morning to come. Now it’s time.
What a time to be alive. I know I say this a lot but , one year ago . I was just about to drop out of University . I was sick of the education system there. Then I joined the College of Discovery, Creativity, & Innovation. It was a steep learning curve at first. I learned about communication and how to voice that with other people. I learned what it was like to be part of an organization. I learned how to execute a creative vision and bring it to life. I learned a lot of things there. I was pushed and found parts of myself that I never knew were there. I never knew that I would enjoy making videos so much. I didn’t know I would enjoy the art of making videos. I didn’t know it could lead me to going to Toronto to check out a film school . I didn’t know a lot of things. It helped steer towards what I want to know though. And that’s made all the difference.
Stay humble, Stay blessed.